Sunday, February 18, 2018

Hip Impingement Awareness

Something I have encountered with several of the conditions I have, is a complete lack of awareness, not only among the general population, but also among some healthcare providers. I suspect part of why it took so long to diagnose some of the issues I have is this lack of awareness. I do realize the sheer number of conditions, plus my ability to appear normal further complicate diagnosing and treating things.

Hip impingement and hip labral tears are something I never heard of until within a few months of diagnosis, in spite of having hip issues for several years. It was first suspected by a physical therapist. Primary care physician sent me off for MRI arthrogram and referred me to an orthopedic surgeon.

The MRI arthrogram is a story in itself. I had no idea what to expect. I'd had SI joint injections before, had MRIs before, but not contrast injected directly into the hip joint, then MRI. I asked the radiologist giving the injection what to expect and he said he was not sure as they did not see patients again afterward. Oh, OK then. The injection was no big deal. No pain at all. But, I was told to hold my leg with foot in internal rotation. This is a very strongly disliked (painful) position for hips with impingement, labral tears, so holding my leg in an uncomfortable position was not pleasant. I no longer recall if they let me walk to MRI, or took me in a wheelchair. The MRI was fine, anesthetic from injection actually helped. I was able to walk afterward, but my hip felt funny, so I took the elevator back to main level, but by the time I got home, stairs were no big deal, so got my swimming stuff, went back to work, then to the pool, swam laps--no pain in hip! Back to work, then went for a walk--again, no pain!  Wow!  Getting pretty excited by this point. Well, as the evening progressed, the anesthetic wore off, and my hip got really achy.  I knew very little of the process at this stage, but even without knowing that the effect the anesthetic has is used as a diagnostic tool, I guessed that the hip feeling better, then worse, meant it was the hip itself that was the problem. I did not sleep much that night from hip pain, and the next day was miserable--reminiscent of the absolute worst ever pain I'd in the hip. I was working toward a major deadline at work that week, so time off was not an option. Primary care physician prescribed narcotic painkiller, telling me the first few days can be uncomfortable. Well, the following morning when I woke, I somehow stumbled to the living room, but then the hip simply would not bear weight--no position at all.  I had set my phone down....and managed to get a distance from it, but then could not get back. No furniture or walls between me and it to use for support, could not crawl, just leaned against the couch for a bit trying to figure out what to do. I knew I could not get anywhere, so ER, urgent care, or anything, was out of the question. So, max dose narcotic, ice packs, heat, ice, heat (yes, alternating repeatedly), gently trying to put the hip through unweighted gentle range of motion, trying to find a position it would bear weight. It took me a couple of hours, but finally got to the point it could bear weight well enough to get down the stairs, get to work. I realized that the severe difficulties were a result of not moving all night, as I finally slept with aid of narcotic pain killer. Thus, knew I needed to get the hip moving, keep it moving, to avoid repeat. I stayed on max dose of narcotic entire day, made sure to get up and walk every 20 minutes or so, etc. We got the project finished, and I survived the day! I no longer recall the weekend. I do remember being afraid to go to bed that evening out of fear I'd not be able to walk again the next morning, but that day seemed to have been the peak.  Things very slowly improved from there, but never returned to pre-injection baseline.

First appointment with the surgeon, I had no idea what to expect, what was going on, I was terrified of more surgery as past surgeries had not gone well and I knew this was a big surgery. He explained that the numerous issues with me made it more challenging to sort out what the major pain generator was. To help clarify, he gave me a cortisone injection in the hip, telling me to live normal life. If the injection gave dramatic relief, then the hip was the major issue and surgery likely would help.  If the injection did not help much, then other issues were the problem and hip surgery unlikely to be helpful.  I still recall leaving the orthopedic clinic half hoping the injection would work as I was desperate for help with the hip pain, but half hoping it would not work as I was afraid of surgery.

The injection worked. Incredibly well. But wore off in a month.  I was not ready to schedule surgery, but clearly the hip was a problem. I asked if possible to schedule an appointment to discuss things before deciding--yes. At that appointment, I left confused, but relieved.  Yes, clearly the injection indicated the hip was a problem, but the sheer number of other issues, still made my case uncertain, so he ended up recommending against surgery, and managing with injections instead.  I asked regarding frequency as the first injection was already losing effect.  I was informed no more often than every four months.  This was the plan.  I lived for a year with decently controlled hip pain, reasonable functional ability 25% of every 4-month period--the duration an injection was in effect. That meant 75% of the time I was really struggling, very limited. This clearly was not working.

I finally asked regarding long term management, as I could not manage daily tasks with the severity of hip pain. I was referred to a provider for Active Release Technique (ART), and also recommended to send my records to an orthopedic surgeon in another state for review to get another perspective. However, I was specifically instructed not to send images only, but also medication list, diagnoses list, etc. I was told that if it were only my hip he'd operate, it was everything else that made him concerned that surgery would only cause worsening of other issues. I respected his caution and honesty. I realized that to a certain extent surgery can always be done later. However, once surgery has taken place, it cannot be undone. I was still afraid of this surgery, so desperately needed a surgeon who was confident it would help if I were to get it done. I dutifully contacted both of the recommended doctors.

I gave ART a trial. He suggested biomedical dry needling based on my amazing response to injections. The dry needling proved effective. So, he used a combination of ART, needling, some Graston, etc. for several months. However, after the first few weeks, he asked when my next surgeon appointment was, as in his mind I needed surgery and he was not going to be able to help resolve things with conservative approaches. I mentioned that nothing was scheduled, but I'd been told to send pertinent records to another surgeon.

I collected and compiled enough medical records to tell the story of my hip, included all of the information I had been instructed to include. My primary care physician asked to review, then send from the clinic what I had collected. Then I waited. Nervously waited. Desperately hoping this surgeon in a different state would have pity on my case, think he could help.  I was desperately hoping he wanted to see me, but also still desperately hoping maybe there would be some idea other than surgery. Yet, in the back of my mind knowing surgery was the direction things were headed. I refused to let myself think about it though.

I finally heard back....the out-of-state surgeon thought he could help me! But, he wanted to see me to check things himself, wanted to get more imaging, a diagnostic injection. I was so relieved, so nervous.

The night before the appointment I learned a couple of things. One, if one has taken Ambien every single night to knock oneself out in spite of pain, and one decides to skip a night because of needing to leave very early the next morning for travel, that said person will not sleep at all the entire night due to withdrawal of sorts. Second, with being awake all night, I also learned that both hips hurt at night, not just the severely painful left hip. Oh. I was not mentally ready to consider I had issues with both hips. I knew right had some issues, but it had seemed to calm OK.

This surgeon was thoughtful, thorough, honest, inspired confidence and trust from the start--which I desperately needed by this stage as scared but desperate, had already had one surgeon recommend against surgery. He checked my hip--range of motion, strength, etc., ordered 3D CT scans of my hips, and a diagnostic injection, then rechecked hip range of motion once the anesthetic from the injection was in effect. He also found more even than first surgeon had found. I was diagnosed with femoral acetabular impingement (FAI), subspine or anterior inferior iliac spine (AIIS) impingement. I already knew I had a labral tear, torn ligament (ligamentum teres), ischiofemoral impingement (IFI). Importantly, I was told I did not have dysplasia or version issues. If these had been present, arthroscopy would not have been an appropriate procedure.

The second surgeon agreed I was complicated, but not too complicated, and he felt surgery worth it. He basically told me I'd exhausted non surgical options. Thus, my choice was to continue as I was or surgery. I was clearly not doing well with current approaches. He was honest about expectations--told me I'd probably rehab slowly, that he could not guarantee getting me pain-free or regaining full functional ability. But, he was confident he could give me less pain, better function, and that was all I needed. Long story short, I left with surgery scheduled....and hope. Hope for the first time in years.

Side thoughts. When one has lived with chronic pain for well over a decade, all spine MRIs "normal," one learns to accept pain as part of life and move on the best possible. I automatically took this same approach with the hip.  Once pain had persisted months, I treated it as chronic and moved on. The result was that I quite likely made things worse from not knowing what the problem was, not protecting against further damage. Also, it was oddly relieving to have a positive MRI after so many negative tests. Finally, an explanation for the pain. I was not crazy. There was a real mess inside my hip causing pain.

Surgery. Oh my. Hip arthroscopy to treat impingement, labral tears is a big surgery. I had never had orthopedic surgery before. I had a rocky recovery a few years prior from a simple procedure. All surgeries had rough recoveries for some reason or other. I typically come from a "knowledge is power" mindset, thus read all I could find on the surgery, watched videos--including surgical videos. (No, I am not squeamish.) I asked lots of questions--of PT, others who had the surgery, etc.

I will leave surgery/recovery for another post.  Diagnosis of the hip issues literally took years.  Even once mostly diagnosed, it still took months and a second surgeon to figure out a sustainable plan. There was a lot of frustration during those years, but also lessons on endurance, patience, etc. I will mention that my only regret regarding hip surgery was not being able to get it done years earlier. It was not worth being afraid of, or worrying about recovery. I am beyond grateful I had the surgery.

Image from the arthrogram! I always watch during injections if I can see the screen. I am curious about things, fascinated to see inside the human body.

For reference. Key resources, information I found helpful early on in the diagnostic process. I had numerous sources, but these are a few that I found most helpful.

Description of hip labral tears (Houston Methodist)
Description of FAI (Houston Methodist)
Explanation of diagnostic process, patient selection (Chris Larson, MD)

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Friday, February 9, 2018

Failure Versus Success

What is failure? What is success? Do they vary depending upon circumstances?

This is a topic I have written about before, but cannot recall where...or when. Between regular journaling, running multiple blogs, multiple Facebook pages, multiple other social media accounts, I lose track of where I wrote/posted what. Add brain fog from chronic pain/illness, and I am sort of a disaster waiting to happen....or possibly already happening?

I tend to cycle back around to various topics over time.  I am not certain if this is because I do not learn the lesson the first time? Or, if it is because I am learning it at a deeper level each time? I prefer to think the latter, but it could be the former (see comment above regarding brain fog).

I have lived with pain and illness for so long that one would think I'd be used to them by now; used to the limitations, used to the difficulties. But, the reality is, for some reason I still think I can do things from before I got this sick, before I became this limited.

I am trying to be open, vulnerable. I am not good at being vulnerable. In fact, I expend precious energy toward appearing to be fine and normal. I view all as a learning experience, learning opportunity. I am going through some challenging times that are making very clear that I have no semblance of control over anything, that no matter how much I know, my body does not seem to follow suit. It is very hard to admit that in terms of what is often considered success, I am failing miserably.

Tiny bit about me that will be relevant. I have lived with constant pain well over a decade, fatigue intermittently since early teens, various massive flares, etc. Up until the past few years I could still manage to push through things. I no longer have that ability. Additionally, my background is in nutrition science and clinical research. This background can be helpful in learning about the various conditions I have, using my knowledge to manage things relatively well on my own, understand procedures, treatments, etc.  However, it is very hard for me to be objective with myself. It is is even harder to admit when things are beyond my ability, that I need help, then ask for and accept help.

I have a connective tissue disorder (Ehlers-Danlos syndrome) among other things. I also have a metabolic condition (polycystic ovary syndrome with insulin resistance). The connective tissue disorder basically means I have issues in every body system, including gastrointestinal. The metabolic condition means my body loves to gain weight, refuses to lose weight....without a lot of effort from me. In spite of challenges, I have had the metabolic condition/weight managed via lifestyle (physical activity, nutrition) alone for years.  However, at present, the multiple conditions are interacting and contributing to my body being overwhelmed and unable to manage as effectively.  So, I now find myself, the person who has had to fight for years to maintain a healthy weight from perspective of not gaining weight, now officially underweight. I have been unintentionally losing weight for months, saw it happening, thought it would stop on its own, when clear it was not going to do so, thought I could manage things myself. But, all of my efforts have failed to turn the situation around. I finally admitted I am out of my depth, called the doctor's office, to let them know the situation and that I thought I needed seen, needed help. They got back to me that I definitely need seen, testing,etc....um yeah. I at least still know when things are at critical points.

The conundrum across all medical providers is that my body needs to move, I am still recovering from surgery and accident injuries, I have multiple underlying chronic conditions. What we are trying to balance, is keep me moving enough to manage pain, fatigue, etc. Also, keep advancing with strengthening and rehab.  But, not moving so much that exercise becomes too great of stressor or expends too much energy.

I recently had sort of an aha moment with a conversation with a provider. Then a further aha moment, when I had a great day at the gym, great energy, felt confident I finally had weight stabilized based on earlier in the week, was hopeful weight was coming back up, then weighed at the gym and down another pound from last week. Oh. Sigh. I do not have anymore to lose. So, here I am trained in nutrition, cannot control my own weight. Feeling like a failure. Being vulnerable and admitting that.

However, there is always another perspective.  It is easy to spot the problems, takes more work to find what is going well. What is going well in this apparent mess? Well, I am getting stronger, I am making gains in rehab, gains in ability. So, although my efforts seem futile with respect to the weight issues, clearly they are aiding in multiple other areas. I am grateful for this.

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About Me

Who am I? I am a blogger. I am also a person with dreams, goals, ideas. I may happen to have chronic illness, but that is not who I am. My educational background is in nutritional science and clinical research. I think of myself as a lifelong learner. I have hobbies. I enjoy reading, blogging, learning new things--especially related to health, nutrition, research, fitness, wellness

I write about choosing to find wholeness in the midst of the brokenness of chronic illness and about managing chronic illness to optimize wholeness. I have lived with pain for long enough I no longer recall what it feels like to be pain-free. I chose early on that pain was not going to control me or my life. Rather, I’d live life fully in spite of pain, illness, and limitations. I refuse to just survive, but rather seek to thrive. I am working on managing/balancing multiple invisible chronic illnesses: Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS), Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS), Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) and insulin resistance, migraine and other headaches, pain, fatigue, GI issues, joint issues and surgeries. The only predictable thing about this life, is that it will be unpredictable. Life is certainly never boring! I may not be able to change my circumstances, but I can change my attitude and perspective. It is my choice whether to focus on the numerous illnesses and difficulties and feel miserable, or to choose to find what is going right, what is positive in what may at first glance appear chaos, and feel grateful.

One of the goals I have is to offer support to others with chronic invisible illness. Living with chronic illness can be isolating, lonely. Sometimes, online support is all that a person may have. 

Another goal is raising awareness for invisible illnesses, rare conditions. I had heard of Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome prior to it being suspected with me, but many never have. I had never heard of mast cell activation syndrome. I had not ever heard of hip impingement, femoral acetabular impingement (FAI), hip labral tears, until right before diagnosis. I had heard of rotator cuff tears, knew shoulders had labrums after learning about hip labral tears, so when diagnosed with those issues, had an idea of what they were. However, I had never heard of os acromiale until first shoulder was diagnosed. I had not known what cluster headaches were. I learned about glycogen storage diseases, methylenetetrahydrofolate reductase (MTHFR) mutations, cytochrome P450 mutations, etc. I started to see patterns, explore connections, overlap, clustering, interactions, associations between multiple chronic conditions. I am still learning. I view all as a learning opportunity, consider learning to be lifelong.


Chronic Wholeness
Pursuing wholeness in brokenness, strength in weakness, health in illness.



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Monday, January 29, 2018

What is Normal?

Things have been on the challenging side lately, but my sense of humor is still fully intact. This is good since I use humor to get through those laugh or cry times. I am one of those patients....the ones described as medically complex, challenging, complicated, medical anomaly, etc.  The ones healthcare providers are not quite sure what to do with....or for. That is OK. I understand. I know I am hard to treat. I know there is no hope of cure, that I will never be "fixed." It is what it is. It is a part of living with multiple chronic illnesses, some of which are genetic.

I am known as the "less than 1%" or "outlier" among other things  Some physicians or other healthcare providers give up on me when they cannot help or are not sure what to do.  Others, openly acknowledge things are difficult to manage on their end, but they realize I am the one living with all of this.  We need an outside of the box approach as I clearly fit in no normal box.

What is sort of funny about all of this, is I have clinical training/background, have worked in clinical research. I know I am everyone's worst nightmare as a patient or research participant. I am the patient who takes time, trial and error, creativity.  I am so far outside of normal, that I'd be an outlier and skew results in research studies. However, I choose to use this realization to view things from a provider perspective, to have open conversations that I am not expecting anything other than support. I am not looking for cures, I was not even looking for diagnoses--had completely given up on that years ago.  Then, was diagnosed with two major conditions that explained a lot of the previously unexplained, seemingly random symptoms. Those diagnoses caught me totally off guard. I honestly had thought I'd never know.

The other funny/not so funny side is....for some reason I still try so hard to function as normally as possible, to appear as normal as possible. I have accepted the various illnesses and limitations, accepted life will never be normal, that my body creates its own normal. So, why do I still try to appear "normal?" I honestly do not know.....just know that I do.  When my body is more or less held together with compression clothing and kinesiology tape, I find ways to layer other clothes over the compression ones, clothes that hide the tape. When illnesses are not quite as invisible as usual, find clothes to mask the rashes, or hide the bruising, or cover purple legs from pooling from poor circulation. Side note on kinesio tape--I think this is the human version of duct tape--universal for holding body parts together/in place. 😉 Second side note on kinesio tape--I of course reacted to the adhesive after a few judicious applications.  Sigh.

Right now, no one is quite sure what to anticipate.  As if multiple chronic illnesses, surgeries, etc. were not enough, a car accident had to add to the complexities. That set me back far enough in surgery rehab that no one knows what time frame or outcomes to expect anymore. My body is already predictably unpredictable.  Add the extreme unpredictability of a car accident, and we are all sort of making it up as we go. 

So, gastroenterology clinic called me recently to discuss medications, allergies, etc. before upcoming GI procedures and tests. Thankfully, no changes in medications or allergies for once (reacting to kinesio tape does not count as adhesives are already on the allergy list). I was asked current weight....she was not happy with the number I told her and how much lower that number is from whatever I weighed at my appointment in clinic just over a month ago.  Um, yeah, I know....she ended with telling me hopefully the testing will help GI doctor help figure things out. Yep, I hope so too! But, quite honestly do not expect it. I have had GI issues my entire life that I recall. We get things to livable level and I move on with life until things get out of hand again.

Here I am living with chronic invisible illnesses, but seeking to life fully in spite of the challenges.  This is what brought me to the title and theme for this blog. Rather than chronic illness, focus on chronic wholeness--physical wellness, emotional wellness, mental wellness, spiritual wellness, etc.

Chronic Wholeness. Pursuing wholeness in brokenness, strength in weakness, health in illness. 



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Monday, January 1, 2018

Good-bye 2017, Hello 2018!

Here we are at the start of another new year.  An entire year is stretching out ahead, somewhat like a blank slate, offering a fresh start. The past year is over.  I like to reflect over the past year and what I learned, look ahead to the new year.  I rarely make resolutions. Rather, I have themes.  Sometimes the themes are chosen intentionally.  Other times, the themes emerge from circumstances as the year unfolds.  This last year, the major themes were trust and patience.  For the coming year, I am considering the idea of "being gentle with myself" as a medical provider encouraged me to do not too long ago.

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Saturday, December 30, 2017

Travel Tips with Chronic Pain

The idea for this post arose from a recent trip.  I love traveling, seeing places, doing things, etc.  Unfortunately, my body does not, so I avoid travel unless necessary. The recent trip was necessary--previously scheduled commitments and not possible to back out at late notice.  I knew the trip would stretch me and I'd need a lot of recovery time.  I was able to break the trip up and make the drive each way over a couple of days each time.  The multiple commitments, meant that I had a few days at the destination to recover from the travel to get there.  It also meant having more time between driving days to recover from the previous part of the trip.

Basic tips:

Stop often!  I know where every rest stop is on my normal travel routes.  I also know where the rest stops without facilities are, where the gas stations are, anything that serves as a good stopping point as sometimes my body is just not going to make it to the next planned stop.

Move!  My body needs to move.  The longer I am forced to be inactive (car rides/driving), the more desperately I need to move.  A lot of my stops are just pacing or doing gentle stretches at rest stops to get my body moving and loosened up again.  Once I reach final destination, if late, it is lying prone with ice packs.  If early enough and access, it is finding a gym, or walking path or pool, or all of the above.  Then, lie prone with ice after that. Lying prone helps stretch out and undo the effects of prolonged sitting.

Ice! I have discovered various systems over the years of managing ice for travel.  I learned after one trip a very good reason to always leave some of my ice packs at home--I will need them once home.  I did not do that once, and there were other complicating factors and the end result was inability to get pain under control for hours. I use my ice packs from the hospital from surgeries as they seem to stay cold longer.  I use a couple of frozen water bottles to help keep ice packs cold, put them in a freezable insulated bag, which I then put inside another insulated lunch bag.  The water bottles work great as ice packs themselves once the ice packs are used up.  I have hip issues, so just set a water bottle at crease in leg, so ices hips pretty well. But, they could work for lumbar spine area as well. With this last trip being so long in the car, so long between stages, dubious access to freezers in the meantime, I ended up getting the instant ice packs. The instant ice packs are a great travel option.  I had boxes of them in the trunk of the car and could get fresh ones at the next stop to get out and move around. I found these ice packs were a good size, but these ice packs were colder. Yes, I got that big of box....or actually two of them as they were buy one, get one free.

Heat.  I do better with ice than heat, but sometimes heat helps. Or, switching back and forth between heat and ice. I have enough heating pads and hot packs to cover entire back at once. I am also grateful to have a car with heated seats.  This last trip, I had ice packs on my hips, and the heated seat on for my back at the same time.  It actually worked pretty well.

Distraction.  This may sound odd when driving.  I mean, when driving one needs to be focused on the road and surrounding environment, other vehicles, etc.  So, what is the use of distraction?  It is to distract from pain.  Every long distance trip, I sooner or later reach a point where I am just done.  I feel like I cannot handle another moment in the car, another moment of the trip, nothing is comfortable, etc.  I find music CDs helpful.  I have a playlist with some of the more intense music.  Anyway, I have some music that is calming, relaxing, soothing, some that is more intense and works well to help distract from pain.  As pain worsens, I also increase volume--within reason.

Driving versus riding.  If I have the option, I prefer riding as I can recline the seat fully, have more freedom to move even though seat belted.  Driving, there is less ability to move around.  I still do some--pelvic tilts, shoulders rolls, etc.  I have the seat adjusted just so, but will change it later if my body seems tired of it. Most who have ever watched me through a class, seminar, conference session, even waiting room or exam room, realize I pretty much never sit still--something is always moving.  Swinging my legs, stretching my back, shifting position almost constantly. Same with driving--almost never still. When driving, cruise control is invaluable, as it gives leg/foot a break.

Support pillows.  I have a back support pillow that I used for years for my back, then to sit on to help with low back/SI joints/hips.  I also have a neck pillow that I use even driving/riding locally. My old car required pillows, rolled towels, etc. to find something halfway decent.  My current car has electric adjustable seats, lumbar support, heated seats, etc.  So much nicer!  I noticed a definite difference in how well I tolerated travel.

Flying. Most of my travel has been road trips.  Flying creates a whole other set of needs.  Having to keep all medications in carry-on bag, carrying empty Ziploc bags to ask for ice once on the plane, having my water bottle with me empty to fill with water later, standing in the aisle once in the air and allowed to be out of seat, doing PT exercises in airport waiting areas between flights, walking/pacing, etc.  I love flying and hate flying.  Flying offers much shorter travel times. However, seating is miserably uncomfortable.  Pressure changes that can bother some peoples' ears bother my joints.  I flew right before my first hip surgery and it never occurred to me the pressure changes would affect my hips even though I knew they affect ears and that weather pressure changes affect my joints.  That was not a fun discovery.

Travel is still feasible with chronic pain and illness.  However, it sometimes takes a bit of advance planning.

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Sunday, November 19, 2017

The Power of Perspective

Perspective is how one views things and is one of many tools I utilize in managing life with the multiple challenges that accompany chronic illness.  When one is in chronic pain, or dealing with chronic fatigue, or depression, or some other symptom, it can be easy to get trapped into focusing on the unpleasant issue at hand.  "I am hurting."  "I am weary." "I am sad." These are easy to say in these situations.  However, "I am" are defining words.  It is possible when sad, to acknowledge the emotion--"I feel sad," but then choose to focus on something that brings joy, or choose to be cheerful in spite of the feelings of sadness. I cannot control what is happening, but I can control my response. This in turn can alleviate some of the otherwise natural feelings of helplessness that usually occur with circumstances one cannot control.

An example of this would be a not uncommon situation that most would view as negative: a car accident.  Accidents can be a pain--literally.  They cause damage to cars, people, property, etc. There is not much positive to find.  Or, is that really true?  What about looking at what happened, and realizing it could have been worse, but was not. There is nearly always a positive aspect; one just has to find it.

If running late, it can be easy to stress over how long one is stuck in traffic, or on an elevator, or a bus running behind schedule.  However, those are things one cannot control.  Worrying about them will increase stress and anxiety. Instead, do not look at the clock. Stay calm and focused if driving, an accident from being distracted will only take more time, plus endanger others.  If a passenger, reading or relaxation practice are good options. 

In the same way, on a bad pain day, or facing a new illness, it is possible to pause, take a deep breath, and look for what is good, or positive in the situation.

Key thought: learning to use perspective to alter one's sense of power versus helplessness in unchangeable circumstances. 

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An Introduction to Chronic Wholeness

I will be writing about chronic illness in the context of wholeness or wellness.  I chose this to be my theme or purpose:  pursuing wholenes...